I never knew nothin'

[Apr. 27th, 2005|02:57 am]

[	m00dz	\|	frustrated	]
[	muz4c	\|	Sinatra	]

Aw fuck it. I cant properly explain myself in this situation so all I can say is that Im really fucking frustrated with life.

Really...fucking...frustrated.

Summer, hurry the fuck up before I lose it.

Take me to Italy. Let me sit on the roof with Kevin and JP looking out into north jersey as we sip on beer and watch the sun setting. Bring me those nights of smoking pot and watching movies or going to diners. I want afternoons of sitting on the balcony reading books! I want hot nights at The Goat hanging with Chris, Melissa, Alazar, Mike, J, Carson, Maia, Jamie and all those other riff raff I call coworkers and thankfully friends making coffee and having an awesome fucking time! Summer school Im even looking forward to you and the feeling of added accomplishment youre going to bring to me.

Fucking HELL!

early morning tired/boredom...

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(no subject)	[Apr. 23rd, 2005\|11:54 am]
Hehe, Melissa just gave me a new icon. Its the awesome.
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(no subject)	[Apr. 16th, 2005\|08:04 am]
Fuckin 8:30 am work and Im still drunk and well you know the rest...
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[Mar. 19th, 2005|05:05 am]

[

m00dz

bored and not tired

]

+ What do you want to be when you finish college?: a working stiff
+ What has been the best day of your life?: how the fuck should i know?
+ What comes first in your life?: living
+ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush?: no/no/yea
+ What are you most scared of?: your moms face mid coitus.
+ What do you usually think about before you go to bed?: koala bears that infest my apartment
+ Did you lose someone you really loved?: no.
+ How many times have you fallen in love?: Same number of times i got up from it.
+ Love your family?: of course.
+ Love your friends?: hellz yea!

+ Movie: Fightclub
+ Song: Im, like, totally crushing on The Go! Team's Ladyflash but I dont know if its true love yet.
+ Band: Probably Arcade Fire.
+ Store: The Apple store in the Shorthills mall.
+ Relatives: 1 Younger sister.
+ Sport: walking.
+ Ice Cream Flavor: Starbucks Almond Fudge
+ Fruit: peaches
+ Candy: swedish fish
+ Day of the Week: thursday
+ Time: 12:00
+ Color: bright green
+ Name for a Girl: Robin
+ Name for a Boy: Jack

* section 8 - do you *

+ Like to give hugs?: we're tight hugs and I.
+ Like to give kisses?: sure why not.
+ Like to walk in the rain?: if its warm.
+ Prefer black or blue pens?: black, fuckers.
+ Like to travel?: yea, especially through time.
+ Sleep on your side, stomach or back?: side.
+ Have a goldfish?: I did, they died, i got over it, but theyre memories still burn within me.
+ Ever have the falling dream?: yea.
+ Have stuffed animals?: I had a few of my ex's stuffed for memories sake.

* section 9 - what do you think about... *

+ Abortion: abortions for some, miniature american flags for others.
+ Suicide: wankers.
+ Smoking: if it can be dried out why not smoke it?
+ Summer: kinda lame, Im a winter man myself.
+ Tattoos: theres a reason I gots meself 2 of em.
+ Piercings: theyre cool.

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[Feb. 25th, 2005|03:00 am]

[

muz4c

Skynard

]

Last night was full of just the right amount of tequila, rum and grass. Keck, Guerra and his brother showed up with a bunch of people Id never seen before in my life and by the point introductions were made i was in such a state that all i wanted to do was sit around and watch the movie. Luckily we did. I drank entirely too much rum, the tequila is all but gone between me and this kid Dan who is apparently dating my friend Natalie. Thank god i didnt smoke all the pot myself or the diner would have been out of my mind terrifying to me.

It was bad enough i'd smoked up Elliot's brother for the first time let alone the cop who stared at us for half the time we were in that damned diner. I could barely eat my eggs and pork roll in peace. Elliot, well hes Elliot and being himself in that situation Im surprised we werent arrested on the spot.

All in all it was a great night.

[Feb. 22nd, 2005|12:20 am]

[	m00dz	\|	sick	]
[	muz4c	\|	Led Zepplin - Rock and Roll	]

I post most of these not for any sort of sympathy just because now that Im thinking about them all they seem either too outlandish or enjoyable not to share with others.

1)Ran out of gas on 280 and had to have Ed bring me some gas. Soon after I called Ed, a cop pulled over a car behind me, and I know that hes gonna come after me next so I start getting my information together but at that moment I realize I dont have my license. Robin was in the car and she'd caught my cold so we're trying to warm ourselves with my Bic lighter and playing 'I Spy' which only consisted of seeing something with red tail lights or white head lights. So I know Im fucked. I know that the cop is going to write me a big fat ticket that will just be another stupid violation Im going to have to pay for 'loitering' or some pig lingo like that. Well the cop pulls up behind me and starts to get out right at the exact moment that Ed gets there and I quickly say Im out of gas and hop out of the car and busy myself with putting the gas into my tank. I hear him mutter something about a good safe night and drive off.

2) I smoked pot and got drunk with my boss after work on friday. Shes the coolest lesbian ever. Wild games of Trivial Pursuit and poker were had by the entire staff that night.

3) This morning I ran a 103.2 fever. I know this because my Women and Lit teacher made me check before demanding I be in class this morning over AIM. (I gave it to her when we were working on one of my papers together so its not my fault necessarily) She quickly regretted that demand when I interrupted her every 10 seconds with a terrible hacking cough which didnt go too well with out discussion about Taming of the Shrew.

4) Im really upset I cant get off work to go to Florida with Lou, JP and Orb, however if anyone has something good to do over break that doesnt involve sunday, monday, thursday, friday, or the second sunday from now Im all ears.

5) I tenatively decided on a focus for my english degree, 'Works by Institutionalized Authors'. Well its a rough idea anyway. Ive really been interested in Robert Lowell. The mans poetry is sometimes crap, but the stuff thats good is really really good.

(Addition)
6) My building has been without heat or elevators for the past week. Being that Im a creature of tropical climates I directly contribute my sickness, which is only getting worse, to this fact.

Theres more but Im getting the spins so Im going to go to bed. How is everyone else?

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A Savage Journey to the Heart of Mitch	[Feb. 14th, 2005\|08:14 pm]
I bought myself a little something with my first nights tips. I got the urge to buy myself this wierd 1971 issue 95 and 96 of Rolling Stone. Happy Valentines Day me.
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[Feb. 7th, 2005|03:29 pm]

[	m00dz	\|	sore	]
[	muz4c	\|	Thievery Corp - So Com Voce	]

So Im into my second week of having severely cut back on my smoking. Severely being, going from about a pack and a half a day, which is out of control, to two cigarettes a day.

I am nic-fitting. I can breathe. Im hungry.

Hurrah.

[Feb. 4th, 2005|01:15 am]

[

muz4c

Walkmen - 138th Street

]

Hopefully tomorrow will fix the mood Im in.

Tomorrow being, going to Elliots house and smoking about a gram of weed and writing poetry and watching Fear and Loathing in Los Vegas while killing a bottle of Jamesons Whiskey. My mood being extremely nostalgic and depressed. Right now I hate it here. I hate the constant parties and random encounters. I hate not having time to reflect. I hate my school work. I want to destroy something. I want to create something. I want to escape. I want to fall in love. Im tired of people here. I need something new that will inspire me. I need something old I can reference my self on.

Im semi-drunk and really pissed off.

[Feb. 2nd, 2005|11:54 am]

[

m00dz

pissed off

]

My professors sent out new reading lists. Wonderful! Not only are two of my books completely useless now, but I need to buy sixteen new books, SIXTEEN! Doesnt that sound a little excessive!? I bought 5 today which added up to an amazing 80 bucks which I guess is lucky. However, I bought the cheepest books out of the bunch and dont need them all yet. The book I need for tomorrow is 120, and I dont have that kind of money.

Now I'll never get to finish Curse of Lono, The Dharma Bums or Rule of the Bone. Thank you Seton Hall English Dept. You are wonderful.

(Translation:[?] FUCK YOU)